So excited. In a one week time span, with me not even home, I have managed to line up clothes, blankets,shoes ,and wood to help finish walls. What I love is seeing God provide it. I planned this as I was flying out to visit my family. I had no idea where I would come up with money or goods to bring. But thru the week, many friends have donated clothing, blankets, shoes, medicine. All things I wanted to bring, but wasn't sure I could afford. I prayed that God would honor his purpose for prodding me to go. I should know after fifty years if God says go, He WILL open the doors if I get out of His way.
And he did.
I am so excited to meet my friend Phelan and her gang. Get to hang out, do some work, have a camp fire, and just talk.
I'm so excited.
And Kymber and Jam, thank you....
I will take plenty of pix to share if she wants.
Have a blessed and peace filled day.
Much love LTW
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Monday, September 29, 2014
Going to Kentucky, with an ache in my heart(who can name the song)
Ok folks, handsome and I are going to KY this weekend to help our friend Phelan. I am trusting God will provide the material in some way, because it's Him prodding me Togo.
Many of you have had hard times. Think about living in a house that is just outside walls. Think about how cold last year was.
I am asking anyone wbo reads, to pray for us to succeed, God pushed me on this adventure, I know He will provide. But please pray we can help them not be cold.
Peace and blessings
Let
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And yes I know it California in the song, work with me lol
Many of you have had hard times. Think about living in a house that is just outside walls. Think about how cold last year was.
I am asking anyone wbo reads, to pray for us to succeed, God pushed me on this adventure, I know He will provide. But please pray we can help them not be cold.
Peace and blessings
Let
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And yes I know it California in the song, work with me lol
Thursday, September 25, 2014
PLEASE A dear homesteading friend needs out help!!!
If any of you read http://a-homesteading-neophyte.blogspot.com/ then you know she has had a very rough year.
There is now a go fund me account, you can find it on Framboise Manor- Kymber and Jamby blog. My heart is truly breaking for this sweet girl. They have had set back after set back. When they moved east it was supposed to be easier, and they are having such a hard time.
I don't normally ask for money or things, but I am PLEADING WITH YOU ALL, if you have $1 or $5 or $10 or $100, could you go to the go fund me site and pledge for her
http://www.gofundme.com/e8g26c
even after meeting her goal, could we all send a few bucks, because they need walls, they need insulation, they need running water.
So I am asking that you prayerfully consider giving to her cause. I have even sent care package boxes with things to help.
They aer a wonderful family, husband and three great kids.
Please go help her.
Remember we are to help the downtrodden.
Peace and Blessing to you all
LTW
There is now a go fund me account, you can find it on Framboise Manor- Kymber and Jamby blog. My heart is truly breaking for this sweet girl. They have had set back after set back. When they moved east it was supposed to be easier, and they are having such a hard time.
I don't normally ask for money or things, but I am PLEADING WITH YOU ALL, if you have $1 or $5 or $10 or $100, could you go to the go fund me site and pledge for her
http://www.gofundme.com/e8g26c
even after meeting her goal, could we all send a few bucks, because they need walls, they need insulation, they need running water.
So I am asking that you prayerfully consider giving to her cause. I have even sent care package boxes with things to help.
They aer a wonderful family, husband and three great kids.
Please go help her.
Remember we are to help the downtrodden.
Peace and Blessing to you all
LTW
Monday, September 15, 2014
One of my "Questions for God"
I know when I meet God in Heaven, there will be no questions, because we will all be praising His great Name, but if I could ask a question, this is one that I would definitely ask Him.
"Why God in your great and mighty wisdom make man and woman's libido sooooo different in our later years"?
I know I probably lost many of you. That is ok. Praise God if this is not a problem in your life. But I know in speaking with many women my age, it seems that they are having the same issue.
This also impacts many who are going thru reconciliation at that time in their lives. There are many ways that this impacts people, but if you are feeling even slightly insecure in your relationship, this certainly does not help.
It is a fact that most men seem to slow down in their later years, and it seems like it starts in the fifties for men. There are many reasons, physical, mental, stress, or your body because of the aging process is not manufacturing testosterone like it once did.
Now women on the other hand ( and remember this is in my informal research lol) before they hit menopause seem to go thru a time when they feel like a teen aged boy. This seems to be my problem, and yes, it is a problem. You would think well what is wrong with that? Men would say woo hoo, isn't he a lucky guy? Well no he is not a lucky guy. He is stressed, and he is tired, and he has more work around the house that either of us knows what to do about it. I asked Handsome about this, his answer was, "I never even think about it anymore" ouch. "It has nothing to do with you" huh?, then the best one, "The more stress you put on me the worse it gets" Now please don't get me wrong, I totally understand that men slow down as they age, and that things change. I am ready willing and able to deal with all those changes, I even spelled it out! So I try not to push, or make any pressure on him in that area.
BUT, I on the other hand am a woman who is slowly regaining her footing after a terrible period in our lives. I am trying to get to the place that I was BEFORE, ( you all know the before word, especially if you have or are going thru an emotional affair.)
Part of my healing is him showing me and reassuring me that he does indeed love me, that he is indeed where he wants to be, not where he should be. I want, like any woman to be desired and loved.
He says it is not me. He is not disappointed in what he sees, that it has nothing to do with me. But it does have a whole lot to do with me, and it is hard to make him see that.
It is just another question that I would like to ask God when I get there, and let me tell you , I have a bunch!
I hope all are well and being blessed.
Peace and Blessings. LTW
"Why God in your great and mighty wisdom make man and woman's libido sooooo different in our later years"?
I know I probably lost many of you. That is ok. Praise God if this is not a problem in your life. But I know in speaking with many women my age, it seems that they are having the same issue.
This also impacts many who are going thru reconciliation at that time in their lives. There are many ways that this impacts people, but if you are feeling even slightly insecure in your relationship, this certainly does not help.
It is a fact that most men seem to slow down in their later years, and it seems like it starts in the fifties for men. There are many reasons, physical, mental, stress, or your body because of the aging process is not manufacturing testosterone like it once did.
Now women on the other hand ( and remember this is in my informal research lol) before they hit menopause seem to go thru a time when they feel like a teen aged boy. This seems to be my problem, and yes, it is a problem. You would think well what is wrong with that? Men would say woo hoo, isn't he a lucky guy? Well no he is not a lucky guy. He is stressed, and he is tired, and he has more work around the house that either of us knows what to do about it. I asked Handsome about this, his answer was, "I never even think about it anymore" ouch. "It has nothing to do with you" huh?, then the best one, "The more stress you put on me the worse it gets" Now please don't get me wrong, I totally understand that men slow down as they age, and that things change. I am ready willing and able to deal with all those changes, I even spelled it out! So I try not to push, or make any pressure on him in that area.
BUT, I on the other hand am a woman who is slowly regaining her footing after a terrible period in our lives. I am trying to get to the place that I was BEFORE, ( you all know the before word, especially if you have or are going thru an emotional affair.)
Part of my healing is him showing me and reassuring me that he does indeed love me, that he is indeed where he wants to be, not where he should be. I want, like any woman to be desired and loved.
He says it is not me. He is not disappointed in what he sees, that it has nothing to do with me. But it does have a whole lot to do with me, and it is hard to make him see that.
It is just another question that I would like to ask God when I get there, and let me tell you , I have a bunch!
I hope all are well and being blessed.
Peace and Blessings. LTW
Monday, September 8, 2014
This is a big problem
I am seeing a trend in women my age. In some ways, it validates my feelings, in other ways, it frightens me.
When our nest empties ( or almost empties) we realize that for the first time in a long time our marriage is now only about us. Our home is about us. What we do for entertainment is about us. Whatever we do now, is about us. For more years than I can count, we focused on our children. We were a united front with our children in common. But now, what do we do.
I have a dear friend, who is dealing with this. My heart aches for her, she was crying that her and her husband could be room mates. I believe I have said that before.
Now things between Handsome and I are going really well. with some counseling we saw where some changes needed to be made, and how our focus needs to change. Slowly but surely we are turning it around. Except for certain areas, which are probably health related, we still have issues there. I have just had to accept it is not because of me, but a health related issue that if it bothers him enough he will fix. I have had to accept that , and realize that yes I am still attractive, and still have much to offer, if you understand my meaning.
But Handsome and I both realized that we needed to also find outside interests, things we could do together, and things we could do alone, or with friends. That has been a blessing. We both look forward to doing our own hobbies ( for me pottery, for him slot car racing and bowling.), and we both love planning our events together as well. For so long we just sat around watching tv and growing old. I am not old, and my marriage was going to improve, I was not going to spend my life in a stagnant marriage. So we intentionally worked on it.
I am praying for my dear friend, I asked her to pottery with me. I also told her the best thing we did was get counseling that helped us communicate better..we forgot how somewhere along the bottle, diaper, school, soccer, boy scouts time of our life how to talk with each other, rather than at each other. We had to intentionally feed our marriage. It is taking time, but I am seeing improvements. I am trying to be patient, and God is honoring that in my life, things are good.
I think this is epidemic among empty nesters, I think we need to speak out, say it is nothing to be embarrassed about, but it needs to be talked about, it needs to be front and center. We sometimes need to fight for what we want in our lives, but if it is something you know will benifit you as well as your spouse, then go for it.
I am praying for all you women and men in this situation.
Peace and blessings
LTW
When our nest empties ( or almost empties) we realize that for the first time in a long time our marriage is now only about us. Our home is about us. What we do for entertainment is about us. Whatever we do now, is about us. For more years than I can count, we focused on our children. We were a united front with our children in common. But now, what do we do.
I have a dear friend, who is dealing with this. My heart aches for her, she was crying that her and her husband could be room mates. I believe I have said that before.
Now things between Handsome and I are going really well. with some counseling we saw where some changes needed to be made, and how our focus needs to change. Slowly but surely we are turning it around. Except for certain areas, which are probably health related, we still have issues there. I have just had to accept it is not because of me, but a health related issue that if it bothers him enough he will fix. I have had to accept that , and realize that yes I am still attractive, and still have much to offer, if you understand my meaning.
But Handsome and I both realized that we needed to also find outside interests, things we could do together, and things we could do alone, or with friends. That has been a blessing. We both look forward to doing our own hobbies ( for me pottery, for him slot car racing and bowling.), and we both love planning our events together as well. For so long we just sat around watching tv and growing old. I am not old, and my marriage was going to improve, I was not going to spend my life in a stagnant marriage. So we intentionally worked on it.
I am praying for my dear friend, I asked her to pottery with me. I also told her the best thing we did was get counseling that helped us communicate better..we forgot how somewhere along the bottle, diaper, school, soccer, boy scouts time of our life how to talk with each other, rather than at each other. We had to intentionally feed our marriage. It is taking time, but I am seeing improvements. I am trying to be patient, and God is honoring that in my life, things are good.
I think this is epidemic among empty nesters, I think we need to speak out, say it is nothing to be embarrassed about, but it needs to be talked about, it needs to be front and center. We sometimes need to fight for what we want in our lives, but if it is something you know will benifit you as well as your spouse, then go for it.
I am praying for all you women and men in this situation.
Peace and blessings
LTW
Monday, August 18, 2014
On Christians and Depression
I waited a little to write this out after Robin Williams death. I for one thought he was incredibly funny. I did not agree with much of his politics but he did make me laugh. I knew he was an addict, and was struggling most of his life with that. I did not realize his depression though.
I was at work in the aftermath of his death, talking with co workers about it. Now I work at a large Non Denominational church, so the people I am talking with are all confirmed Christians. What I heard from a few of the younger people floored me. Now they are full of the spirit of serving and living a life pleasing to Christ, and I love love love seeing that in the younger generation. But they also have much to learn about life in general, lol.
One young man said, "well if he had the Lord, this wouldn't have happened".
I said what do you mean by that? He told me if he had the Lord, he could have cast all his cares on Him, he (robin williams) could have given his anxiety over to the Lord, and he would not have had a problem.
Wait, what????
In love, I turned and told him that many devout, loving, serving Christians suffer with depression. They suffer with anxiety. They do cast their cares on the Lord, over and over and over again. It helps, certainly , to know that God has a plan in all the mess, that He will be there in the end for you, but it does not magically end the anxiety or depression. This attitude among Christians is what is driving many Christians to feel as if they failed, or are not "good enough" for God to get rid of the depresssion and anxiety. On top of the problems they are having, they now feel like "failed Christians" because the Lord wasnt enough to stop the problem, so it must be that I do not believe enough, or havent prayed enough, or any of a thousand reasons the Lord is not taking this away.
Sometimes, in times of real anxiety and/or depression, people will self medicate. They do this to try to stop the pain and anxiety. Now you add to the feeling of failure, you failed at being a christian because you did not cast your worries on Him, and NOW you are doing something you know is not what the Lord wants, but you justify it because it does help temporarily to ease the pain.
But then it comes back.
This happened to me. I tried just treating the symptoms for years. I told myself that the Lord would take this away from me in His time. Until then I must just suffer through. My family paid, my marriage paid, my job paid.
Then one day the world around me collapsed. I thank God for my doctor, I fell apart in his office while I was taking my mother in law to him for a check up. He asked if I was ok, and BAM the flood gates opened and I just bawled and broke down, and I mean broken.
He hugged me and said please let me help you. I had spoken to him before about the anxiety, I only wanted a medicine to take at the time of the anxiety, but I systematically refused to take and anti depressent for some strange reason. But on that day, I would do anything to get help. I hadn't slept in months, I lost weight. It was aweful. So I agreed to the antidepressant. After 4 days I felt my mind clear, after two weeks I could eat. He brought me in and asked how I was doing, and I told him how amazing I felt, but that I still was not sleeping. He said I want to up your dose, and I freaked out a bit. He said I want you to sleep at night, try this for two weeks, if you do not feel better yet, and get sleep we will back it down.
Lo and Behold, after three days of the higher dose I was sleeping, all night long!
And guess what, God still loved me, and I loved Him , no changes in that.
I was not a failed Christian, but a stubborn one. He had been sending me help every time I went to the Dr., but I did not see it as that. I saw it as being weak. Until I was so overcome with weakness that I accepted the help that I now see was sent by God so long ago, but I did not recognize.
So please, if you are a Christian and need help, ask for it. You are NOT a failed Christian for asking for help, it does not mean that you are not good enough, or that you are paying for something.
On the flip side, if you are a Christian, and see a brother or sister suffering, pray for them yes, but do not think for a moment that they have done something wrong. Help them, hug them and say, Can I help you?
Sister, Brother, you are not alone, reach out for the help that is out there. The first step is the hardest. After that, its all down hill.
I think that Robin Williams felt like he had failed. Like he wasn't good enough to stop feeling these feelings, that he deserved it. He didn't, nobody does.
Peace and Blessings,
LTW
I was at work in the aftermath of his death, talking with co workers about it. Now I work at a large Non Denominational church, so the people I am talking with are all confirmed Christians. What I heard from a few of the younger people floored me. Now they are full of the spirit of serving and living a life pleasing to Christ, and I love love love seeing that in the younger generation. But they also have much to learn about life in general, lol.
One young man said, "well if he had the Lord, this wouldn't have happened".
I said what do you mean by that? He told me if he had the Lord, he could have cast all his cares on Him, he (robin williams) could have given his anxiety over to the Lord, and he would not have had a problem.
Wait, what????
In love, I turned and told him that many devout, loving, serving Christians suffer with depression. They suffer with anxiety. They do cast their cares on the Lord, over and over and over again. It helps, certainly , to know that God has a plan in all the mess, that He will be there in the end for you, but it does not magically end the anxiety or depression. This attitude among Christians is what is driving many Christians to feel as if they failed, or are not "good enough" for God to get rid of the depresssion and anxiety. On top of the problems they are having, they now feel like "failed Christians" because the Lord wasnt enough to stop the problem, so it must be that I do not believe enough, or havent prayed enough, or any of a thousand reasons the Lord is not taking this away.
Sometimes, in times of real anxiety and/or depression, people will self medicate. They do this to try to stop the pain and anxiety. Now you add to the feeling of failure, you failed at being a christian because you did not cast your worries on Him, and NOW you are doing something you know is not what the Lord wants, but you justify it because it does help temporarily to ease the pain.
But then it comes back.
This happened to me. I tried just treating the symptoms for years. I told myself that the Lord would take this away from me in His time. Until then I must just suffer through. My family paid, my marriage paid, my job paid.
Then one day the world around me collapsed. I thank God for my doctor, I fell apart in his office while I was taking my mother in law to him for a check up. He asked if I was ok, and BAM the flood gates opened and I just bawled and broke down, and I mean broken.
He hugged me and said please let me help you. I had spoken to him before about the anxiety, I only wanted a medicine to take at the time of the anxiety, but I systematically refused to take and anti depressent for some strange reason. But on that day, I would do anything to get help. I hadn't slept in months, I lost weight. It was aweful. So I agreed to the antidepressant. After 4 days I felt my mind clear, after two weeks I could eat. He brought me in and asked how I was doing, and I told him how amazing I felt, but that I still was not sleeping. He said I want to up your dose, and I freaked out a bit. He said I want you to sleep at night, try this for two weeks, if you do not feel better yet, and get sleep we will back it down.
Lo and Behold, after three days of the higher dose I was sleeping, all night long!
And guess what, God still loved me, and I loved Him , no changes in that.
I was not a failed Christian, but a stubborn one. He had been sending me help every time I went to the Dr., but I did not see it as that. I saw it as being weak. Until I was so overcome with weakness that I accepted the help that I now see was sent by God so long ago, but I did not recognize.
So please, if you are a Christian and need help, ask for it. You are NOT a failed Christian for asking for help, it does not mean that you are not good enough, or that you are paying for something.
On the flip side, if you are a Christian, and see a brother or sister suffering, pray for them yes, but do not think for a moment that they have done something wrong. Help them, hug them and say, Can I help you?
Sister, Brother, you are not alone, reach out for the help that is out there. The first step is the hardest. After that, its all down hill.
I think that Robin Williams felt like he had failed. Like he wasn't good enough to stop feeling these feelings, that he deserved it. He didn't, nobody does.
Peace and Blessings,
LTW
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
very sad situation
I have some things going on with extended family that are making me very sad, and very frustrated. A member of our family is being hurt by actions that were not hers, but her mothers actions. Her mother is so stubborn, and I am sorry but MEAN, that instead of doing what needed done to make sure her daughters wedding was beautiful, with all her family there, she continued to say mean and terrible things about me. When Handsome was shown what she said about me, he tried calling her, she would not answer. So he was very angry and said you cannot talk to LTW like that, and if you insist on this, we will NOT be coming to the wedding.
We never heard another word from wicked witch of the east after that he left that message. So we assumed that she would tell her daughter, that we were not coming. We did not expect her to tell the truth, but at least mention to daughter we cannot come. There are long standing issues here, and her daughter chose to ignore these issues and pretend all is well. The wedding is this weekend. I got a message from the bride saying "you are still coming right?" Now, the thing is, that I am the bad guy to her mother, she is angry with me.The reasons are selfish and if she said the reasons out loud, she may realize that she sounds crazy, but she makes her own reality and always has.....
I told her to call her mother. She then got back to me, and of course her mother made a different reality, and her daughter is mad with us because we are choosing not to come. I had to tell her what happened, and why. She told me, I am staying out of this situation with you and mom. I told her that because of the foul and awful things she said, uncle Handsome wants an apology from Wicked Witch mom.
She blames us.
Again, I am the bitch, the bad guy. I am the selfish one.
You know, I have only let the wicked witches mother live with me and care for her for THIRTEEN YEARS. So yeah, I deserve the anger on her part.........not.
But ultimately I am sad that we cannot be there, I was excited and happy to go. The bride was excited to have her whole family around her.
And now we are the ones feeling bad again..
Peace and Blessings.
We never heard another word from wicked witch of the east after that he left that message. So we assumed that she would tell her daughter, that we were not coming. We did not expect her to tell the truth, but at least mention to daughter we cannot come. There are long standing issues here, and her daughter chose to ignore these issues and pretend all is well. The wedding is this weekend. I got a message from the bride saying "you are still coming right?" Now, the thing is, that I am the bad guy to her mother, she is angry with me.The reasons are selfish and if she said the reasons out loud, she may realize that she sounds crazy, but she makes her own reality and always has.....
I told her to call her mother. She then got back to me, and of course her mother made a different reality, and her daughter is mad with us because we are choosing not to come. I had to tell her what happened, and why. She told me, I am staying out of this situation with you and mom. I told her that because of the foul and awful things she said, uncle Handsome wants an apology from Wicked Witch mom.
She blames us.
Again, I am the bitch, the bad guy. I am the selfish one.
You know, I have only let the wicked witches mother live with me and care for her for THIRTEEN YEARS. So yeah, I deserve the anger on her part.........not.
But ultimately I am sad that we cannot be there, I was excited and happy to go. The bride was excited to have her whole family around her.
And now we are the ones feeling bad again..
Peace and Blessings.
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